Welcome to Day one of my 30 days to sobriety. I got the book of the same title from the library after trying to ‘dry March’ and getting to the 3rd. Ouch.
Regulars will know I have complex/nasty health issues and that I have dramatically improved healthwise over the last year. With that improve in health has come a paradoxical decrease in health behaviours – so thrilled was I to tolerate alcohol and certain foods that I have gone a bit mad and my health and sanity (which is marginal at best) are suffering.
Following my own advice on taking baby steps or going the whole hog re habit change – I figured I needed more structure, better systems, a bit more drama.
So here I am. Sober May – Day 1.
I started the day with chocolate fish for breakfast – why not?
However I have now gotten through the worst of ‘happy hour’ with a guided time travel technique (on the companion website you get access to with the book). During this process – I got to look at my future self as a shrivelled old drunk (at least I got to have a virtual drink in that one) versus happy and bouncy and awesome (very thirsty). I could not quite get past the aversion to wanting to see any versions of myself post 50. But I did and without a drink.
How do I feel – like I want a drink or four. However I feel a bit confident I will not have a drink at all.
I am also tasked to focus on Event + Response = Outcome. So the event of ‘wanting a drink’ will be responded to with not having one and the outcome of seeing you tomorrow at Day 2, not yet smug but also a bit pleased and hopefully not eating chocolate for breakfast.
Wish me luck. See you tomorrow.